LOL

I kinda ditched this blog buhh, yeah.

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Its getting kinda hot

so that's good, cos the weathers like hella weird. Its hot then cold then hot then cold then hot. Lmao, it needs to be summer. Oh wait, it is. but it needs to feel like summer. I went swimming with Melody this week, probably going again today, uhhh hella bored. I need texting on my phone god damn it. My mom won't let me get it even if I paid for it myself. Then I wanna get a new phone, I guess. Uhmm, drink iced tea! :]

Summer days

are hellsa boring when you live in fcking Elk Grove. Damn, can't wait till college then after it I can move to $F or NY or something. When you go outside here, theres nothing but quietness and houses. Not only do I live in the most boring town, I live with the strictest mom ever. Those two do not mix. That just means I stay home all day doing nothing. Some people actaully manage to have fun even living in Elk Grove, cos they just go out a lot. Around to the few shopping centers that we have. And sometimes they even go more out to other towns. Lucky them. Even Sac is better than here. Plus, our schools are boring too. There's not much to do and we have no lockers or anything. And it's amazing that I actually have internet right now, cos usually my mom take the modem for the internet reception, but I found it hidden in her closet today. Lmao, yeah hella gay. Yup, that's how I live. Ahaha;

I’ve learned

that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts. I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people, It’s what they do about it that matters. I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I’ve learned that you should always talk to loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you’ll see them. I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t. I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done When it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it. I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel. I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love. I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief. I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may influence who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do. I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I’ve learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves go farther in life. I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you. I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I’ve learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains. I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe. I’ve learned to love and be loved.

Summer goals;

go shopping with the girls
visit jenny in monterey
hang out with bff
sunsplashh, yes
lose my stomach fat
learn how to cook stuff
go to the great mall :]
improve volleyball skills
take too many pictures
get a webcamm haha
get a better phone plan
get a new ipod, mmhm
decorate my walls
swimming at alyssas
moree

I hella wanna

go shopping?
Yeah.
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Maaaall.

An inconvenient truth

Daang we're all hella growing up. Elementary school. Then middle school. And highschool. Then soon college, and beyond. Enjoy elementary school while you can. Enjoy middle school. Highschool too. Yeah and college. We learn to face new things. Good and bad. We see the good in the world, but then the bad in the world emerges. There is so much more that we have done and so much we still haven't done. We complain that we never get to do things, but in the end, there's too much you can do and we become overwhelmed. The reality of life is slowly but surely approaching. Everything is starting to settle in. Everything is happening around us. The world isn't so carefree and nice anymore, now is it?