An inconvenient truth

Daang we're all hella growing up. Elementary school. Then middle school. And highschool. Then soon college, and beyond. Enjoy elementary school while you can. Enjoy middle school. Highschool too. Yeah and college. We learn to face new things. Good and bad. We see the good in the world, but then the bad in the world emerges. There is so much more that we have done and so much we still haven't done. We complain that we never get to do things, but in the end, there's too much you can do and we become overwhelmed. The reality of life is slowly but surely approaching. Everything is starting to settle in. Everything is happening around us. The world isn't so carefree and nice anymore, now is it?

Summer

has begun.

So far, not much.

I went to work out at the Clubhouse with Vanessa this weekend.

Today I went to volleyball with Alyssa.

More stuff later, I guess.

Todayy

was the LAST day of school. Wooot, summer time!
yay, but wtf, I'm not happy at all.
I don't think people really wanna hang out with me cos Im excluded for a reason.
Jenny's party would've been fun, but
I didn't have enough time to do my hair.
At the restaurant, I was the oddball, the only exclusion
who didnt have anyone to share food with.
Everyone was all paired except me.
At Jenny's house I feel very ignored.
And no one let me play rockband.
It's boring just to watch almost the entire time.
And people kept bringing up S7.
Aaandd I had to leave at like 11.
Early. Oh well.

Endd

of school is soon, but it doesn't really feel like the end of the year at all, idk why but it doesn't. I think it's cos I still have all this work in school and cos my friends all dont really like me and I'm not sure I can clear all this shit up in a week.

Goooooddd,

Why the fuck is God so angry with me or something?
My bestfriend is leaving me.
I've lost two bestfriends this year.
Everyone thinks I'm annoying.
My ex-boyfriend hates me.
Our relationship was soo fake.
I miss my daddy.
My mom's working too hard.
I am stressed out.
I have so many problems.
I've been through too much crap.
God, you're unfair.
Everyone else seems to be loved so much.
They're all included in their groups of friends.
I seem to be all by myself.
God, where are you?
Are you here but maybe I just can't see you?
What am I doing wrong?
God, please help me.
Because I am very hurt right now.
Please fix me before I break.
God, I need you.

Happy bday Cynthia

May 13 2009

Highlights of this month..

Ugh. Like I said, this week I've had my problems,
and uhmmm well it wasnt all that bad this month.
I never really get to go on here on weekdays, so I'm updating for the month.
Spring Fling May 8
Sophia's bday party May 16
Community Service hours due May 27
VVV Spring Fling

Health is actually my favorite class weirdly.
It supposed to be boring, but its the best of all my classes.
VVV health