this week

of Winter break has been much much better than last week. All I did last week, besides Christmas day, which was kind of fun, was sit in my room at home listening to the radio, doing chores, and without my phone. The worst time to take away a phone is during break because thats when you don't have school to see your friends. During break, without phonecalls it totally isolates you. I hate my mom shes always isolating me. Urghhh. I don't even have texting. Well anywayss, im in San Francisco right now, at cousins house for a few days. It alright, on Saturday we stayed up all day watching old reruns of Heroes. I would never watch it by myself, too much blood and killing, but it's a pretty good show. =] On Sunday, we went to Ikea and ate frozen yogurt and Swedish meatballs. You should go there and try some, it's really gooood. Today is Monday, morning. I'll write more about this week later. asdfjkl ;]

sorry jess.

happy belated birthday??
it was on december 11.

oh and happy birthday, tiffany.
december 24,

merry christmas.

Today was actually not bad. Party at my house. Umm cousins&aunts&uncles from Oakland came to my house. Lots of food. I've never had so many pairs of shoes at the front door in a loooong time. I hate living here, with just my mom. I'm very lonely, today was nice though. But even with all these people here, I couldn't stop thinking about him. I haven't seen him in like a week, oh em jeee. I misss Doug, like, a lotttt. And my bitch of a mom won't let me get my phone back. Urgh.

friends

are supposed to be there for you when you need them. Then how come mine can't be more supportive about my BF? They always walk away whenever we come up to them so I havent talked to them much lately. Having a relationship is supposed to be a happy thing, then why am I sad? Friends are supposed to have fun together, then why do I feel so excluded? Now, that doesn't really feel right... With Christmas coming, I hope my problems don't ruin it, because I'm not the kind of person who can just forget about something because I will think about it all day, and it will completely change my mood. I hate that. =/

Sometimes,

I wonder about songs all the famous singer rapping or whatever people write. I hear them all the time on the radio and stuff. Where do they get these ideas? If I were a songwriter, I'd write songs about life and love. Not being stereotypical, but it is kinda true that a lot of rappers just write about drugs, sex, and girls and shit. Its disgusting and unappropriate. Where has all the real music gone? It's always a song about sexual drugs and girl desires. Is that all life is about now? Life is much more than that. It's a love for everything in life, including your boyfriend or girlfriend. Music is supposed to make you feel better and to express yourself.

Hmm.

Christmas is just around the corner. I don't know what to get for Doug. Eww I am a terrible girlfriend. I'm very lamo.

=]

Today was a boring day.
Till after school.
But I'll tell you more about stuff later
<3