dolores mission park

was funn. I went there today with cousin, we took the bus and yeah. The parks here in San Francisco are much nicer than the ones we have in Elk Grove, they're all too "safe" which makes it boring. Today I just got really mad about that. I am moving out of Elk Grove someday because I hate where I live. Its so boring, and nothing happens, only houses and more houses, no stores around my house. I get stuck in my room all day. I love San Francisco, I want to move here someday maybe.
Anywayss, at the park, after we went to pick up more Heroes dvd's, haha I love that show, these two little girls kept bothering us. I got attacked and almost mugged by them.It was kinda funny thought, except i got sand all in my pants and shoes. They jumped on me and Monica and like dragged us around, and we tried to run away. They kept saying, stupid girls, i hate teenagers, blah blah. Hahahah. xD Then their mom was like stop that enough is enough. But then they came over and dragged us around the park using us as their personal slaves. They pretended to be our P.E. teachers and made us run a lot. We piggy backed them and pushed them on the swings and raced them on monkey bars and ran circles around the park. Then they were like if you try to run away and escape, then I'll attack you again. And I was like omg I'm not going anywhere ;]

Happy Birthdayy

Maggie & Nicole
December 29
Birthday twins you two, lol.
Old ladies. =]
Love ya.

this week

of Winter break has been much much better than last week. All I did last week, besides Christmas day, which was kind of fun, was sit in my room at home listening to the radio, doing chores, and without my phone. The worst time to take away a phone is during break because thats when you don't have school to see your friends. During break, without phonecalls it totally isolates you. I hate my mom shes always isolating me. Urghhh. I don't even have texting. Well anywayss, im in San Francisco right now, at cousins house for a few days. It alright, on Saturday we stayed up all day watching old reruns of Heroes. I would never watch it by myself, too much blood and killing, but it's a pretty good show. =] On Sunday, we went to Ikea and ate frozen yogurt and Swedish meatballs. You should go there and try some, it's really gooood. Today is Monday, morning. I'll write more about this week later. asdfjkl ;]

sorry jess.

happy belated birthday??
it was on december 11.

oh and happy birthday, tiffany.
december 24,

merry christmas.

Today was actually not bad. Party at my house. Umm cousins&aunts&uncles from Oakland came to my house. Lots of food. I've never had so many pairs of shoes at the front door in a loooong time. I hate living here, with just my mom. I'm very lonely, today was nice though. But even with all these people here, I couldn't stop thinking about him. I haven't seen him in like a week, oh em jeee. I misss Doug, like, a lotttt. And my bitch of a mom won't let me get my phone back. Urgh.

friends

are supposed to be there for you when you need them. Then how come mine can't be more supportive about my BF? They always walk away whenever we come up to them so I havent talked to them much lately. Having a relationship is supposed to be a happy thing, then why am I sad? Friends are supposed to have fun together, then why do I feel so excluded? Now, that doesn't really feel right... With Christmas coming, I hope my problems don't ruin it, because I'm not the kind of person who can just forget about something because I will think about it all day, and it will completely change my mood. I hate that. =/

Sometimes,

I wonder about songs all the famous singer rapping or whatever people write. I hear them all the time on the radio and stuff. Where do they get these ideas? If I were a songwriter, I'd write songs about life and love. Not being stereotypical, but it is kinda true that a lot of rappers just write about drugs, sex, and girls and shit. Its disgusting and unappropriate. Where has all the real music gone? It's always a song about sexual drugs and girl desires. Is that all life is about now? Life is much more than that. It's a love for everything in life, including your boyfriend or girlfriend. Music is supposed to make you feel better and to express yourself.

Hmm.

Christmas is just around the corner. I don't know what to get for Doug. Eww I am a terrible girlfriend. I'm very lamo.

=]

Today was a boring day.
Till after school.
But I'll tell you more about stuff later
<3

Turkey

Happy Thanksgiving! Be thankful for what you have that many people don't have. Today was an okay day. My cousins were here, and we made turkey table decorations. Then we went to the park with swings. When we got home, we got ready for dinner. It was around 3. Since then, we'd been preparing all the food. There was a lot. My moms family friends came, and then my grandma. And we ate. I look like im 4 months pregnant because of all the food I ate. It was really yummy though, but too much. Then we played Wii sports and I burned like 2 calories off. Yay. Like, thats gonna help. Haha =]

San Francisco

yesterday was muchoo fun
sf with cool people
yes yes yes
westfield mall,
then chinatown
then japantown
with asian invasian
i bought a shirt and a tote bag.
and food, yum.
potstickers && dimsum
so i spent total like $40
not bad i guess.
i wouldve bought more
first time i been to japantown
its nice and very cute
smaller and different from chinatown
ate ramen for dinner
had to leave in a rush
brandon got an allergic reaction
glad hes okay now
bus ride home was very homo
in an entertaining way
lots of singing
them guys make me laugh
it was fun much
got back at 8:30
it was freezing cold
went to coffeebridge
for like 20 minutes
went home

twilight

Its funny how some people went to see it and 12 o'clock in the morning. Theyd barely get any sleep. And Alyssa and Jenessa did that and they said the movie sucked. Haha and Jess, Jae, Maggie, and Nessa went to see it after school. I wonder why everyone is so obsessed with Twilight. Ive never read the series before but people say its good. I should read it, but I don't like reading, plus the Twilight books are hella thick. Too bad the movie was disapointing. I should probably read the books and see what its all about.

lmao =]

at lunch
jenessa: why do they separate the guys and girls bathrooms? the only difference is the urinals
carolyn: well they do that cuz what if a guy left sperms on the toilet after shitting
jenessa: omg and a girl sits down and it goes up her thing
carolyn: thats exactly what i mean. haha.
jenessa: and she'll get pregnant and she wont know who the baby's dad is
carolyn: hahahaha
jenessa: hhaha and what if you were at home and used the bathroom after your brother or your dad
carolyn: omg haha ew
alyssa: you'll end up with a retarded baby
jenessa/carolyn/alyssa: hahahahahahaahahahha
norma: ew you guys are disgusting
justin: i kinda lost my appetite now for pizza.
justin: but what if a guy saw a girls period on the toilet?
jenessa/carolyn/alyssa/norma: eww thats gross

powderpuff

Today was the powderpuff game at Franklin High School. I love powderpuff cos we get to see the guys do their homo cheerleading. Haha the rally was fun, but I didnt get to go see the game. Congratulation sophomores for winning. Too bad freshmen didn't come through. Oh well, we'll do better next year. I feel bad for the seniors who havent won once the entire four years at FHS. =[

i love _____.

♥Bestfriends; God&&Jesus; gummi worms; Myspace; peanut butter; Neopets; Aol instant messenger; ribbons; kicking it with buddies; bright colors; Jamba Juice; Aeropostale; doodling; guys; the Icing; singing; earrings and necklaces; clothes; puppies; plastic; daffodils; Lollicup&&Tapioca Express; panda bears; koala bears; teddy bears; Victoria's Secret; bothering people; Stuffed animals; spending at the mall; soda; FamBam; making things; pens and markers; chocolate chips; Musica; islands in the sun; LOVE; Target; Sourpatch; Starbucks; taking pictures; scotch tape; birthday presents; New York City; American Eagle; Sunsplash; Jelly Beans; San Francisco; climbing things; watching clouds; gum; Sagwa; ddr; rolling down hills; shoes; sunny days; Sesame Street; cookies; jumping on couches; iPod; sushi; Step Up 1&2; Sanrio; Abercrombie; Disneyland; vitamin water; random stuff; chips; swimming; running through grass barefoot; peaches; rice; grapes; strawberries; oranges; mangoes; french fries; high-ones, high-twos, high-threes; high-fours; high-fives; Pink; chips n dip; Sacramento; hanging at the park; Suite Life of Zack & Cody; dancing in the rain; warm sandy beaches; pillow fights; Summer break; Pikachu; Purell; squares; circles; ice cream; hearts<3; balloons; sunglasses; Claire's; hip-hop; noodles; pizza; sleeping; miniclip; Thats So Raven; pranking people; adventures; world peace; snow; pajamas; popcorn; movies; boxes; origami; building sand castles; dreaming; daisy chains; perfume; Forever 21; post-it notes; talking; smiles; scribbling; polka dots; stripes; green; pencils; erasers; pockets; rainbows; sunsets; tacos; calculators; monkey bars; water slides; Crayola; $money$; T-shirts; the internet; laughing; friendship bracelets;

um, yay? its friday.

Another week well spent. Uh. Not really? Yeah. Just school. Friends. By the way, Jae got a girlfriend! Good for him. Finally. And this weekend is going to be boring as usual. Typical weekend for me is wakeup Saturday morning, watch some TV, eat a lot. Go on the computer. Clean my room, then clean my bathroom. Get turned down by my mother when asking to go out with friends. Do homework. Eat more. Practice piano. Occasionally go shop with my mom. Sunday morning, wake up, eat. Go out with mom to pointless errands. Go home. Eat, sleep, eat. More homework. Practice piano. Boringg. Monday, school. yesss. Boring weekends has made me become weirdd because I actually like going to school now. But then again, next weekend, I get to go to San Francisco with all my besties. =]

the stars

Go outside tonight. And look up. See the stars. I like to do that sometimes when I'm feeling down. The moon is shining bright. Its round and shiny. Be thankful for that because without it, we wouldn't exist as a human race. The stars all around. There are so many and the ones you see are barely any compared to all the stars in the universe. The universe is humongous. I wonder how it got so big. And sometimes I also wonder if theres another girl out there in a different galaxy, in a different solar system, on a different world, looking up at the sky wondering about life. She is probably wondering if theres any other life out there among all the pretty glowing dots in the night sky. Here I am. I wish I could fly away and visit her on her own Earth planet and get away from life down here on our planet. I imagine that, and I feel much better.

feelings.

Well heres to begin with. I like someone but its like really confusing. I dont know if I like him anymore. Its confusing. Sometimes it confusing to tell what anyone is feeling. My friends seem to not like me sometimes. I get self conscious, like a lot. And thats not a good feeling. I get hurt pretty easily. Sometimes I wish I could just tell people things but its hard. Depression is a bad feeling. Everyone gets it, so I guess I just need to get over myself. One life to live. Live it good. There's no time to be emo.

=]

I just created this blog. I decided to make a blog so I can put all my thoughts and stuff here. Just so I can keep up with myself.