Endd

of school is soon, but it doesn't really feel like the end of the year at all, idk why but it doesn't. I think it's cos I still have all this work in school and cos my friends all dont really like me and I'm not sure I can clear all this shit up in a week.

Goooooddd,

Why the fuck is God so angry with me or something?
My bestfriend is leaving me.
I've lost two bestfriends this year.
Everyone thinks I'm annoying.
My ex-boyfriend hates me.
Our relationship was soo fake.
I miss my daddy.
My mom's working too hard.
I am stressed out.
I have so many problems.
I've been through too much crap.
God, you're unfair.
Everyone else seems to be loved so much.
They're all included in their groups of friends.
I seem to be all by myself.
God, where are you?
Are you here but maybe I just can't see you?
What am I doing wrong?
God, please help me.
Because I am very hurt right now.
Please fix me before I break.
God, I need you.

Happy bday Cynthia

May 13 2009

Highlights of this month..

Ugh. Like I said, this week I've had my problems,
and uhmmm well it wasnt all that bad this month.
I never really get to go on here on weekdays, so I'm updating for the month.
Spring Fling May 8
Sophia's bday party May 16
Community Service hours due May 27
VVV Spring Fling

Health is actually my favorite class weirdly.
It supposed to be boring, but its the best of all my classes.
VVV health

2.18.09

Happy Birthday Sophia,
Omg its funny, cos all the pictures we took at her party, Sophia's not in any of them.
Ahaha.

Hella Confused..

cos I really don't know anymore. This has been the worst week ever. This year sucked actually. And apparently cos everyone thinks I'm annoying. I don't know if my friends like me. I don't know if they want me there. Why does everyone hate me so much? It makes me sad. I'm not intentionally annoying. I'm now trying to be less annoying, but I just don't want to say anything cos I'm afraid people will be annoyed with me. I don't even know if I still am going to Jenny's going away party, because I won't feel welcome there anyways, at least I don't think. I've been trying to clear up my problems this week, but I still feel confused. I feel better now than I did a few days ago though, but I'm still in a mess. I have a lot of problems, I just really wanna find my place here.

Jenny's going away

partyyyy. I need to go dress shopping reallll bahhd. First of all, I need a casual dress to wear to school cos yeah, aand I need a formal one for Jenny's dinner at Cheesecake factory. Lol yes, I love dressing up. Can't wait till that day cos it'll be fun :D , but I wish that day would never come too cos they Jenny will be gone the next day after that, tears. :[

OHH

Btw, I got all my community service done. Ahahah, you wouldn't think I could finish it in two weeks, but I finished it in two weeks! I got tweeeenntayy hourss, and a haalffuh. Bam. Oh shahh. asdfjkl;
:]

Tears,

I'm sad. Jenny and Norma are moving to Monterey, and possibly Maggie is going to Laguna Creek. Plus, Cynthia is moving to McClatchy. Ughh, what a loss to my circle of friends. I'm excited to Jenny's going away dinner party thing cos we're gunna hella party, yayyy we get to dress up, mmhm, but I'm sad cos it means she's leaving the very next day after that, and she'll be gone. But we'll visit her and Norma of course. I'm hella sad cos Norma's my best and she would be the second best friend I lost this year. I don't really have a best friend anymore then. That's not good, yeah.